After all that you have to work on building a relationship, building a trust that’s pervasive enough to quell the voice in your head that screams that they’re out to get you.
Simply put, dating is a struggle, it’s a jungle of uncertainty and trying to make a good impression and being rejected sucks. There are several things that have eased the pain for me a little bit though, those are good friends and family and people you trust innately giving you feedback, reminding yourself that you’re awesome, and some time out from stress that can reinforce your foundation of stability.
I feel like I need a good deal of time to show someone how great I am on top of the paranoia and the rejection, you just feel cheated that you didn’t get to show them how awesome and worthy of love you are. Consider what it’s like when you have a mental illness though.
First you have to navigate the waters of attraction, hoping they’ll like you, then you have to find a way to tell them about your situation, which can go any number of ways and with the stigma surrounding schizophrenia I’ve heard and been witness several horror stories.
And those kinds of wounds can take a lifetime to heal and will inevitably carry over into your next relationship.Most women have this inexplicable need to make every guy want them and then they get upset when they find one who doesn’t and start to wonder what’s wrong with them.At the end of the day, all we want is to find that one person who sees and appreciates us.I’d like to say that I’m unaffected by what people think of me but that would be a lie.I think everyone has a modicum of self doubt and when that self doubt manifests itself through paranoia and delusions, as it does in me, and I imagine anyone with schizophrenia, it’s not a good thing.
Every supermodel was rejected by countless agencies before she found the one who saw her potential, beautiful women get rejected and cheated on, the smartest people don’t always get the job…